On a Journey
How amazingly things change.
Last year, I had a goal to travel at least 2 new countries each year. This year, I have manged to go to the countries I’ve been to already, so this goal is not fulfilled. And I am almost sure it will not be fulfilled in 2009.
Not because I wouldn’t have an opportunity. My friends keep calling and inviting for various low-cost flights to the most exotic parts of the world, and they all do sound exciting. But I guess everything has it’s time, and now it is time for other things in life.
At the moment I am on another journey: a journey through myself, through my soul, thoughts and feeling, finding peace with myself and being comfortable from the inside, anywhere I go.Somehow I felt I’m in a vicious circle - working and fulfilling my social roles, which are just a mask in a way, and then desperatly rushing for a holiday somewhere far far away from my natural surroundings, where I get more in touch with myself. But do I deserve more than just a 4 weeks per year to be myself? Am I not supposed to be myself all the time?
The difficult part, is to find out which things are the real me. The ones that are my thoughts and not somebody else’s.Then I wouldn’t need to travel to make myself feel better, I would feel great all the time.
When I discover the peace with myself, I’m sure, I’ll travel the world, and will see even more of it and more consciously than I would see right now.
